This past month has been totally insane. Filled with peaks and valleys and joy and laughter and tears and sweat and blood and smiles.
This thing inside of me was so strong that I had to act on it. Can you relate to this feeling? That sense that there is something deep in the fiber of your being that you have to do, and if you don't do it, you will be violating something...or somebody?
Better to try and fail, because at least you are being true to yourself.
And the worse thing would be to live wondering, WHAT IF?
My heart has been burdened with a terrible curse: a dream. I am beginning a beautiful adventure, and I know that I will never be the same. This next year will change me, and shake my inner self. This past month has already done that. I am alive again, and I can't stop living.
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I'd like to say this: I am not sorry. I am not sorry for living and loving passionately and gloriously. I can never apologize for putting my whole heart into something, as that is what I am supposed to do. I will never wonder "what if" about ANYTHING. I will jump in with open eyes and an open heart to everything I do. I will put my all into it, and never look back. That is how I am.