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I am at this point in my life where I am waiting. I mean, I always have been "waiting" for something, but I REALLY am right now. I'm in between dreams, wandering here and there. Yet, this is the time I've heard the most from You and I am learning the most about myself.

I heard a lyric to a song the other day and it said "You have new mercies for me everyday..." and I found such comfort in this. I mean, I have heard that a bazillion times. But I think it really hit me, that every morning I am starting with a new slate. Every morning, I have a chance to do better. I wish I could love like that. I really do. I want to love endlessly, recklessly, abandoned, free. I'm not just talking about a girl (but yes, that too) I'm talking people in general. Friends, family, strangers, enemies, lovers, losers.

Do you ever feel like you wish you weren't so open? I am beginning to hate that about myself. I don't know why. I live my life like an open book, if you want to know something, chances are I will tell you. If you are wondering about my emotions, I'll spill some out for you. Does this defeat the purpose of this blog? Should I stop writing...right...now...

Too bad. I can't.

I got a little scratch on my glasses. Apparently, it is snowing everywhere I go now, and I am in the middle of a constant hail storm. At least, that's what this smudge makes it feel like.

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I heard a story recently about a man and his wife. They were young and in love. Their love was so big and yet so small in the same moment. Through an accident, she became paralyzed from the neck down. For the next six months, the man sat by her bedside as she laid there. He didn't hold her hand, for fear that she wouldn't feel it. He picked up a guitar. He didn't play. He learned. He played her feet back on the ground. She has now fully recovered.

If I could, I would play that same song for you. I would set your heart beating wildly. I don't know the song yet, but I hear the melody and will learn. For you. I will set your feet on the ground.